Simpatico: 2014

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2014

A lot of you mentioned the new year and the optimism that a new start would and could happen. It's important to start a new year with the right attitude. Hell, it's important to start each day with the right attitude. This is where I'm struggling right now.

My feelings shuffle between anger to confusion to bargaining to despondency to nothing at all. I'm pretty much sure those are all the signs of grief. I guess it's normal. Any change or loss of any kind affects the mood, the spirit.

My best friend sent me a picture yesterday. Did it change my mood? Make me cry less? Change my attitude? Not really in the way she intended, I guess. I was actually amazed I got it at all. You see with Verizon I rarely could access my voice mail or receive picture messages until I got into town. Christmas day Reed and I changed to Sprint because Verizon was being a pain.

So here I lie in bed, crying, and I get a message... and it's a picture. I didn't look at the picture, more than just the thumbnail, for a while. I simply looked at the screen dumbfounded. I was floored that a simple change in plans would cause my phone to work like everyone else.

A change in plans... that is what I need to just deal for the next little bit. I don't think I can deal with this alone. This is my normal MO. I get upset, hurt, mad, and I cut myself off from everyone. Then I make poor decisions because I am listening to a heart full of pain with a brain lonely for attention. I think I need help. I think instead of being an island I need someone helping me. If even, for today, in the way her picture shows.

Happy New Year, happy new attitude, to me.

4 comments:

Amber DaWeenie January 1, 2014 at 3:17 PM  

That picture says it all...We are all here for you and I hope there's enough room for all of us under there.

A new year....a new beginning...a new outlook on life...

Frankie Furter and Ernie January 2, 2014 at 12:53 PM  

WE totally agree with all that Amber and DaWeenies just said... scooch over... we are all wanting to cuddle in with you.

Team Beaglebratz January 2, 2014 at 1:13 PM  

Mom Kim here - I think I know that place under there - think I have been there - maybe not the same situation as yours that put you there but there have been different things in my life of 57 years which have happened that have left me in places where I really didn't know who, what or where or how to deal with so all I end up doing is isolating - which was not always a good thing either.
For now, I will shut up. I wish I was there next to you to listen and give you a shoulder to lean on. Like Amber said, we are here for you.
HUGS to you
Mom Kim

stellaroselong January 2, 2014 at 1:50 PM  

Oh I love that picture. When I was going through a hard time, people who I believed would help me be strong, were not the ones, who in the end helped me through. We just never know the roads coming up in our lives. Keep moving.
Deb

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